It’s official. Mallory is coming home! She passed her car seat test. Now, her parents just have to pass “the test” – a night alone with her. ;) I have to admit that I’m excited and nervous. I still wonder why in the world God has entrusted me with this responsibility. He’s always pushing me to test my limits. I just have to trust that He will provide what I need.
I slept better last night than I have any other night. I hope that is a sign of things to come, but if I had to guess, that was just my last opportunity. ;) I think that it will be a little less hectic around here when we aren’t having to go to the hospital. Of course, I could just be fooling myself. Right now, all I can think of is leaning back in my rocking chair with my sleeping baby on my chest. . . with her head right under my nose so all I can smell is that sweet baby scent. Heaven.
I will admit that it has taken me a while to adjust to not being pregnant. I just wasn’t ready to not be pregnant anymore. . . if that makes any sense. I loved feeling her move. I loved sitting with my hands on my belly. I loved knowing exactly where she was and what she was doing 24/7. I honestly miss her. Maybe it would have been easier if she had been here. I don’t know. And it’s totally selfish, because Johnathan can experience her a lot more now than he could when she was still in me. I just wasn’t ready yet.
Now, I have to go pack a bag and go get my baby. ;) We’ll let you know how it goes.